Introvert. Recluse. Thinker. Overthinker. Emotional. Too Emotional. Standoffish. Genius. Brilliant. Dope. Too Much. Not Enough. Selfish. Mean. Procrastinator. Artist. Creative. Brat. High Maintenance. Talented. Blunt. Quiet. Humble. Unicorn. Alien. Awesome. Unbelievable. The Worst. Crazy.
All things that I have been called and possibly am or could be. What I am learning is that words are just that…words. They really do not make or break you. Sure they have power – but to what extent? It’s people who make them positive or negative. I’m learning to take compliments – as well as criticisms with grace. Of course I have my days. I used to think that being called “too emotional” was a bad thing. But guess what? I’m an artist – and it’s precisely THAT that inspires and makes my art. It’s precisely that thing that translates in my work. Ninety percent of what I experience goes into my work some way or another because my work will always be there and is really all I have. It doesn’t judge me and is patient. It doesn’t call me names because I question normality or because I see most things differently.
Art is a way out of the norm.
Art creates dialogue.
It doesn’t matter if the dialogue is good or bad. As long as people are talking. What they are saying is in a way, none of your business because once you’ve released your art to the world – your task is done. Ideally, you just want people to feel something. Or at least I do. I think I do a decent job of that in my work… I want to evoke something…stir something up in your soul…make you think…feel.
I‘m a worrywart. Always wondering “will this be good? Will this be better than the last?” Because you always want people to be interested. “IS this interesting? Does this make sense? [see my last blog] I get caught up in needing to constantly feed the people when I should be feeding my soul instead. Removing self-imposed time limits and the need to satisfy everyone. Don’t get it twisted! I love the love I get! It keeps me going! But if I don’t feel it, I can’t write it or shoot it. I get that this is also a mindset that I need to probably adjust. I’m working on it.
My point is this. F*ck everyone else. Create from your soul – and nothing else.