I went out and shot a 2MinMovie a couple of weeks ago with some pretty dope actors. It was a story that had been in my head for a while that I'd finally gotten around to. I was super excited about this because I had played this out in my head for weeks. I made a mental shot list and hit the street to meet the actors on what seemed like the absolute hottest day of the year. I remember cringing because I really like to treat my actors well and the weather was brutal to be shooting outside in. Luckily they didn't mind - they just wanted to work! It was an awesome and humbling feeling.
The entire shoot lasted all of about a half hour and we were all on our way into the rest of our weekends. I hadn't looked at the footage for about a week or so due to trying to balance the energy I have left over from work to my creative work. It took for me to leave town and hole myself up in a hotel to get some of my own work done. I finally pieced the footage together in a rough edit...and I hated it.
I'm not sure why I left the house that day without my tripod. I think it was the sheer excitement that I usually feel when I am shooting or am about to shoot something. This was a major fail on my part as I learned two weeks later. The footage was too shaky thanks to my non-steady hand.
I was crushed. There were some really great moments in that footage and the thought of having to re-shoot it made me slam my laptop closed and stare out of the window at an awesome view of Philadelphia that I couldn't really appreciate in my frustration. I couldn't release the film as is because it wasn't up to my own standards of excellence. A re-shoot had to happen. I was hesitant about reaching out to the actors because I tend to feel that people are busy!!! I don't like to use too much of anyone's time! I had to put my anxiety aside and reach out to them to see if they'd be willing.
To my surprise - they all were!
What I learned from all of this - or should I say re-learned, is that you really do have to make shitty stuff in order to be GOOD. But it better equips you for the next time - because you are definitely going to mess up again. Now go forth and screw up - you are on your way to being great.